Tuesday, September 18, 2012

365 Days Of Love. Day 151


My all-time favorite movie is Away We Go. It depicts the journey of a young, recently-pregnant, couple as they explore hip cities in search of a place to reside. Ultimately, they end where Maya Rudolph (the woman in the relationship) began., her deceased parents’ house on windy shore. When I first watched the movie, it set with me like a wishful romance that I wanted my life to one day become. Most recently, when I’ve thought about the movie, I’ve seen it in an entirely different light.

There’s something powerful about going back to where you came from.

When I was in Haiti, I was envious of the Haitian-Americans who were working in the homeland of their parents, returning to their home to empower the community. I was envious because their ties to the country ran far deeper than mine ever would, they were innately connected.

As a teacher in South Texas and, now, as a librarian on Pine Ridge, I ambiguously beg my students to leave, learn the stories of others, absorb the knowledge provided by independence and experience, and then come back. Come back to transform your community, to empower individuals, to lead, to tell a different story.

Oddly, though, whenever I considered this idea of return for myself, I scoffed.

Mitchell (South Dakota in general) is too small for me.
There aren’t jobs for me
What would I do for fun?
I would be selling out, settling prematurely if I were in South Dakota

Now that I’m back in South Dakota, that I’m frequently able to sneak home to Mitchell, I’m flirting with the idea of, perhaps, residing here. At least for a little bit. I feel connected at home, connected to people who initially poured into me and connected to the stories that authored my life after I left home. I feel potential power, power to mobilize a community, power to pursue the things I’m passionate about, power to make amends with the petty pits that at, one time, made me hate home.

I have no idea where I’ll “end” up, but I am warming up to the idea of solidly returning to where I came from, returning to place I first learned

Love. 

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