It's amazing how easily self-doubt can eradicate security.
When I interviewed for my current position, I'm certain I radiated confidence. Had I not, they likely wouldn't have hired an inexperienced Librarian when they were still in need of teachers. For the first week of inservice, that confidence didn't falter much. I've always known that I'm not nearly as dewey decimal-y as I should be, but I never doubted my abilities to scan books, get kids excited about reading, and host fun parent nights and book clubs.
Until today.
I was so encouraged by the process my mom, grandma, and I made in the library over the weekend, but today, when students and teachers and parents briefly passed, I was embarrassed by the mess and I wondered if people understood that the library has been dormant for quite some time and this overhauling process is (I think) necessary and that I'm not a messy personorunorganizedorunpreparedorapatehtic.
Self- doubt, I hate you.
Self, I'm trying really hard to love you.
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